The moment when your life had completely turn upside down

i need a break from this

exam is coming again

wish me luck !!!

because i really need one.

heyyy peeps..turn on your singing mode..


happy birthday to you ~~
happy birthday to you ~~
happy birthday to dee ~~
happy birthday to you ~~


no presents and no cakes from me at the moment. BUT for sure there is love from me to you.
bahhh i owe u cakes and present...tagih saja when i get back. we might go to singpore to get it !! sounds cool to me. don't you think?

happy birthday babe. may Allah bless you. di murahkan rezeki and all. and and..what did you wish for? let me guess..mahu kawin eyyy..lol..

love you !!! *hug*

why is it so hard to forget things when you really really wanna forget it? why does it have to bother you everyday, anytime or anywhere ?

why do you have to shed tears for someone who does not appreciate you? why do you have to care for someone who does not care for you?

why life can't be easy just for a few moment? why do you have to fake those smiles when the truth you are in pain right at the heart?

why do you have to lie to know the truth? why do you speak the truth but you knew it was a lie? why do you have to give up when you knew you can win it?

why can't you understand? why can't you just listen? why can you just be there for him/her even for a few moment? why can't you wipe his/her tears?

why can't everything just stop?

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what am i babbling about? :/




you over there. yes i miss you.

what a night it was for us. i love you more each day. i never had enough with your love before and now. i will never give up on you. no matter how much tears i cried for you, it will never be the end of us. i realize, the more i cry for you..the more i love you and the more i want you to be mine. we fight, we have our ups and downs but the phrase i am giving up on you never exist in me and you knew i never or wanting to say it to you. i promise you that. you gave me something that i never had before. u made me feel alive, in pieces and hope for the days ahead. i never thought that i will have someone which is so true like you in this life on mine. well you scares me alright at times and i never say a NO to give it a try. i never have the thought of ending this relationship because you complete me. you are my need in life. you are my backbone when i am down with things. you always tell me everything will be alright when i comes to the rough time. you made me believe in this relationship and i so can't wait for the days, months and years ahead of us. you are just simply the one my love. i want you, i need you, i feel you but most of all..i want to love you more..

happy Monthsary baby..

i miss you. you are my only hope.
here to be your only yours.
and and so what if i am being so deep with this post. i am truly in love. have you been in one ? i hope so. then you'll understand.

i am dead bored. here me out again. I AM BORED. the weather sucks pretty bad this whole week. during morning it is like HEAVEN.. bright-sunny sun and it is a good mood for me to start my day with big geeky-nutty smile on my face. BUT, once it reaches midday..it turns out to be really windy. WINDY BABY !! you could hear the hustling wind from inside..and it never stop raining. NEVER :( . where the heck did the summer gone to ? YOU !! don't hide the sun..i had enough with this freezing shitty days. i need sun. bright round sun. i wanna lay down on my back on the grass and feel the sun shining down on me. awwwww. i wish. i am not excited to check the weather forecast for tomorrow. i will just die on this bed until the sun rises. will i ? i guess not.

wow. i just talked about how shit the weather was. what am i babbling.

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damn it. i admit. I MISS YOU !! i can't denied it. you make me think of you everyday and night. arrgghhh. yess i know you wanna read this phrase again. I MISS YOU. baby please come back :'(
my days are no longer the same without you by my side. i only had the bunny around to be with. i feel like a dead corpse. walking and learning about aircraft engineering in Perth College.


aaaaaaaaaa. i hate flu. my nose likely to turn red. really red. well to be exact, blushing red. yes on the nose. no longer blushing cheeks. i feel like a clown. :( SO NOT swine flu though. nazubillah. just a normal one. i guess it is due to the weather. it shines for few moments, then it rains. then it shines again. then it rains again. headache. uhhhh talking about headache. my baby got this massive headache which really kills him. he said it is because he is not use to wear those turban. yes, my baby is wearing a turban sometimes. you got problem with that ? lol. kidding. well the wearing the turban part is true though.

*sniff sniff. runny nose*


uhh wanna know what i did again today ? i cleaned the kitchen, toilet and the hall way. aaaa haaa. i am being a good girl today. but before that, i went shopping. gilaa..siuk shopping ani..i shop for the cleaning stuff. aaahhh the house feels fresh and it smells nice too. and more to that. Nur Zaidah Binti Gani did some revision on her module 6 * Material and Hardware * exam is like still way ahead. to me it is not. so what if i wanna be the geeky girl of the day. i got hundreds of pages to revise. i know i can do it. if they can, why can't i. right right right ? boleh belah la engkau..

* sniff sniff *

urrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhh i am missing you more.

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la la la la la di dam di du di dam di du
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mummy, happy mother's day. you are the greatest mom in the world. without you. i wouldn't be in this world. thank you so much for raising me up in this way. you sacrified alot for me, abang and adek aiman. you been through the ups and downs and yet you never give up. and one more thing, thank you so much for being so supportive in everything i do, including the green light thing in the relationship. lol. *malu-malu* i love you so much more than words can tell.

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and to you my lil boyfriend. happy 1st birthday to you. i know i never say this to you. but i love you som much. you made me fall in love with YOU. aawwwww i want that sexy eyes of yours. your eyes simply kills me. wait wait. baby, i am not cheating on you. i am just having a slight affair with little soldier. and by the way, he never was and is a soldier to me and don't make him one. lil one, you are adorable. * come here. let me bite those cheeks of yours * i am in love..with you ~~~ * singing mode *

happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to lil soldier.
happy birthday to you.

you might not be able to read this, since you still speak baby language. but i know your brother will.and he will tell you all about it. and you over there. you better get him something. ohh yeaaa..what happened to the lil teddy bear ? did he do stunts on it ? i hope not.


anyhow. i am off to bed. much love.
his princess.

Happy Belated 20th Birthday BFF Amal @ Luh

sorry for the delay update. i know i should post this on the day of your birthday. but too bad. i was so so so busy sleeping and being so damn lazy. actually, im ill. hahahha. get well soon zai.

*having a running nose*

anyway. may Allah Bless you in everything you do. i just wanna make it simple darl. hope you dont mind. You know how much i love you and missed you from past, now and then.

la la la la la. xoxo. Hug !! big warm one !!