update !!!! here is an update..hehe sorry guys or ladies..it was a very hectic moment for me since the holiday started..then when i came back..i was really tired because i have class the next day..BUT..i am all well now..ok sudah...everything is back to normal for me..

so how was my holiday ? no no no..how was Oman ?
its been a blast..totally an amazing moment..can i come there again on december ? *hint hint*
the food was awesome..i learned so much about it..don't want to mention..but i gain so much weight since i am there..lucky Ramadhan is somewhere at the corner now...so i can do my diet-ing before baby comes here on October.. *diet ?? yeaaaa right he said* when i said be supportive..he will laughed back at me..ohhh well..that is one of the part i love about him..teasing me so much at times..


ohhh the best thing was..i got to meet the FAMILY !!!! his mummy is such a very nice mother..she got me a watch * what watch? a very special one* and 1001 night arabic lotion which is zaaa killerr...met the sisters..they are nice and polite..the brothers are nice...but i dont talk much with them except SMG and lil soldier...and and the maid is friendly too..

my activities in oman:
shopping, eating, paintball, bowling, swimming, eating, eating and eating non stop, floating on the lazy river being drifted away, beach, and 2 nights 3 days anniversary present at the most expensive ressort.



his mother book a ressort for me and him..it was for our ANNIVERSARY present..well at first..i didnt know it was a anniversary present..i thought we were just gonna stay there and have our own private time..BUT...i was suprised the whole 1st day with cakes, those stuff on the bed, roses around the bath tub and bed..roses on the dinner table at the hotel's restaurant. we both had our own private swimming pool and BEACH ~~ *the wave were really rough. i walked towards it..then he gets upset* i was just teasing you baby.



here are SOME of the pictures of our Anniversary moments during our stay at the ressort. * i don't want to post the other SOME* sorry, but hey..i need privacy too. :)

will update some other pictures some other day.

another day has gone

yet you are not here with me

you never said goodbye

please come home soon

i am still here waiting

don't leave me here alone

:'(

Assalamulaikum..

i am not suppose to feel like this..i mean this feeling i am feeling right now..now bit by bit..my mind is taking over it..some people say, eyes are blind..so you have to see it from the heart..but what if the heart is torn apart? i guess that is the moment you become blind and think things you are not suppose to think..but what if the things that you are thinking is true..but you are the only one who don't know the fact that it is true..well i don't want it to be true..it hurts so much when it is true..i don't want the head to operate like a turbine engine..with all those compressors, rotating around which are driven by the shaft from the turbine and combustion chambers with its thing working its system with all the flames and air and producing that massive thrust and feels like blowing your head off !!!!!!!!!!

what am i saying !!??!! why tears are rolling down my cheeks and and and non-stop !!!! and why the hell am i blogging this ??!!!

why can't i just roll myself back and forward on my bed and jump around like a happy girl with pink cute flower-butterfly ribbon on her head with lollipop in her hand ?



i feel like crying again. goodnight people.



and yes..i am a trainee aircraft engineer..that is why i mentioned all those compressor and whatsoever combustion chamber !! and don't ask why i mentioned it..because i don't even know myself !!!


p/s: dear god. please show me signs.

I miss YOU one and ONLY Michael Jackson.

tears roll down my cheeks without realizing it. i had been watching the live memorial of MJ. every speech made the feeling of sorrow right through the heart. its time for him to be let go from all the pain and accuse that were made towards or against him. The very sad moment was when the time his daughter Paris Jackson spoke and burst into tears saying how great MJ was as both as a dad and a mother.

it is very very painful to feel how it is like to lose someone who is very very close to you. The person who raised you up, give you everything you need in term of shelter, education, clothes, toys and most importantly are ATTENTION and LOVE. The person name DAD. no matter how many people hate him, go against him, say stuffs about him or whatsoever situation.. he will always still be a DAD.




i miss you dad. may God bless you and may God bless you MJ.

congrates to all my bestfriends, close friends and friends who had just got their UBD and ITB result..and to those who didn't get in..chin up everyone..this is not the end..maybe there is a more better way for you guys and ladies to reach that gold of life..i am not saying i had reach mine..but i am trying too..you guys and ladies should be proud that you had the courage and self-believe to go through all those nasty A'level exams..the most important thing..you all did your best..and even if you had failed..it is not wrong to try it again..


loads of love from me.

may god bless you all.

Assalamulaikum.

i can't sleep.

i miss my baby boy.

he must be dreaming right now.

love love love love you pumpkin.

smooch smooch ~~

i miss them so so so much. they are the most important people in my life. my backbone. my support. my love. my need. my life and they are my angels. Things would not be the same without them.

beloved mummy.

beloved little brother.
( adik aiman. i don't have your recent photo. so i choose the Hampshire school photo )

my big brother.

my love.

Assalamulaikum..

hello people..seriously..i dont know what to blog actually..but the thing is..i don't wanna keep this blog been left out just like that..or just simply dead i should say..

ohhhhh to mummy, abg and abg pul..thank you so much for the makanan that you guys sent me..it feels like 'home' eating it..and mummy thank you so much for the raya clothes..

to the bf..thank you so much for your gift..love you so much..

but i am upset right now..what is it with this human and animal thing ? ohh well..

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9 days to go baby !!

lil soldier..here i come ~~~