no update for the moment.
but i will try to update soon.
maybe with pictures.


back to la la la la la.

i have this close friend. The one who is currently in Brunei. i am not sure why things between us kinda change now..i am not the only one who is feeling this, but there are some people who does too. why ?? is it because someone had taken my or our space in your daily routine life now? it is not wrong to make friends. but please my dear friend, i am or we are your friends too. i am not mad or what here..maybe i am just a little bit upset right now. i was searching for you everyday in MSN..then when i text you..no comment..all i wanna say now is..I MISS YOU SO MUCH..

A friend is like a flower,
a rose to be exact,
Or maybe like a brand new gate
that never comes unlatched.
A friend is like an owl,
both beautiful and wise.
Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost,
whose spirit never dies.
A friend is like a heart that goes
strong until the end.
Where would we be in this world
if we didn't have a friend.

The City where i grew up as a teenager
Location : Norfolk Crescent, Edgware Road.


highlight of the day.

woke up.
had breakfast.
went out.
had lunch.
went out again with my brother and eza.
another lunch meal again.
lastly, me shopping alone in Oxford Street and all the way.

used to be my house.

enough said. i need to pack.

I NEED TO SHOP !!!!!!!

=))))

mummy..i love you so much..you are the best ever mummy in the whole wide world..you taught me how to become a better person in life..i never forget the things that you did for me since i was borned..you made me the way i am today. thank you for being so supportive in what i do, who i want to be with and who i want to become as a person..no matter what happen i will always love you mummy !! sorry we can't celebrate mothers day together, but remember..you will always be in my mind..and and..sorry no present this year from me..maybe once i get home i'll buy you something really awesome..but for now..prayer is the only thing i can do..

muahhhsss..

happy mothers day to all mothers in the world..you women rock your kids life so much with full of colours of happiness..

enough said. bed time.

London is so so so so siuk !!!! yesterday i arrived here..king cross's station was really really REALLY crowded !! i felt like i was being squashed up by lots of tall people..and and the underground tube stinks so much !! anyhow i arrived at the house then FEW MINUTES after that i went out with my brother, his wife, his wife's brother..*i think..* and the wife guy friend..

its been a while haven't been in a car ride..it is even a DIPLOMATIC car lagi..gosh..i miss being driven by a driver in a diplomatic car. talking about car..its a Mercedez car yoo !! the big new four wheel drive merce..

anyway..yesterday we went to ikea then to loog fung *correct me if the name is wrong* then had ice cream..then had late dinner at Thai's restaurant..since i mentioned about the restaurant..the location of the restaurant is very scary..like a hooker street..*being serious here* hehe..but other than that..the food was super duper yummy yummy..


that was yesterday..now what had happened so far ??
for the first time ever since i got here, i woke up at 4.30 in the morning..we went to this market called Billgate Market..who ever had been there..i am sure you guys had fun too..because i enjoyed mine so much. sadly..i didn't have the chance to take pictures. .......Then went home around 6 something and found my baby was on MSN..so yeaa..webcaming session before he left for Mar.

i fell asleep soon after that..then he woke me up telling me that he was about to leave for Mar. stupidly ME..i turned out to be upset. i guess i need more sleep..deep sleep~~~
woke up around 12, had my miday shower..then i found lunch was being served !!!!! how lucky am i..

i guess i write so much..let the pictures do the other half now.

My brother's apartment.

Loog Fung ??

bro and his wife with their fellow friend.
shopping for raw food eyyy ??

today's Lunch
yummy !!
Thanks for cooking.

crab being cook with chili.

errrr Vege soup??

mmmmm...kinda like Tom Yam.

another dish of crab being cook with curry.

ohhhh yeaa..i am home alone now. my sis is being rushed to the Hospital just moment ago. Her water broke !!! yay !!! meaning new born niece or nephew ?? i bet it is a girl..hehe..
i am sure my brother is really excited right now. it is his first baby.

p/s: miss you baby.

enough said. i love you too.

The day meant to be meant to be mine ?? why not right ...at least i am trying to cheer up my day here and finally i smiled..like REALLY smile..meaning it is true..THE DAY IS MEANT TO BE MINE !!.. *apakan aku ahh* ........ i over cried last night, SERIOUSLY OVER CRIED !! my eyes hurts so much till morning..and and my head went asdfghjkl......CRAZY !!!! i wonder how can i express how CRAZY my head was =/ hmmmmm.. it was some mixture of roller coaster ride, cyclone, huge wave impact, coal mine in operation, stabbing and hammering every inch of the brain.. WOW !! i guess i was really crazy last night alone in the room..but sweetly, the princess fell asleep..IN DEEP SLEEP !! REALLY DEEP DOWN TO THE CORE !! WAAHH !! * i did sleep well last night and thanks to the panda eyes the next morning*

wait..slow down babe..i can't believe this..i meant to be on hiatus at the moment but what the heck..here i am updating my precious dearly so-called blog..with big crazy-nerdy-nuts smile on my face at times..HELL YEAH I AM NUTS !!


this is me last nigh in the shower.

ohhhhh one more thing..i wanna go to France really deeply badly dooooo =( mahu so much to go bahhhh..=( anyone ??

i think i should let that out of my mind at the moment..because guess what ?? I WILL BE ON MY WAY TO LONDON TOMORROW MORNING !!! here i come abg and kaka !! it's been a while guys..and and i missed your wedding last year since i was in Perth.. well get ready to be annoy by me soon..REALLY SOON !!

anddd yeaaahhhh to the guys team 777 and 787 representing Perth Scotland and RBA..good luck with the tournament guys !! lets kick ass !! hehehe and to the ladies..*cheers leader* have fun..well i am sure u ladies will do.. and who ever are going to Notts for the Easter game..have a wonderful time !!!


last but not least..

Happy second monthsary baby.
i love you more each day.
i miss you more than you know it.
i need you.
i want you.
&
thank you for everything.
xoxo

p/s: i am still missing you even though..we are on webcam right now..hehe..

sorry for the lack of updates.
honestly speaking. i am so not in my mood since yesterday.
i am not used to this.
seriously, i just don't know what to say or share.

i feel like i want to shout out loud.
kick or punching something.
run as fast as i could.
climb the highest mountain and jump off.

i need time again.





on hiatus~~~~

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p/s: thanx for the shirt baby. so loving it.

miss u my other half.

i am being jobless again today. i am suppose to do my revision last night but i ended up watching MOVIES till i fell asleep. to you my baby, i am sorry. i know i told you i will study after movie not MOVIES. i guess i am just being lazy here at the moment. *no pinching ass if i am being lazy*

ohh yea..i woke up..then i found this poem at my dearest long lost friend's blog. can't u believe i shed tears reading it. like zai..WTH !! what is wrong with you nowadays. i guess i am getting softer deep inside each day.

so here you go,

The joy, pain, and sorrow of words

if you understand you know it hurts

your anticipation as the story begins

you sadness when it has reached the end

The glory of passion leather bound

mystery of intrigue written without sound

I crave you deeply in my soul

those people and memories I'll never let go

the bitter sweet I'll pour over again

to share late hours like a treasured friend

The best of you fill me with hope

when life drowns me you're my sane rope

always bringing me back to my dreams

the gallant knight of tales it seems

Then teasingly you puzzle my mind

hints of secrets and meaning in you I find

and there are times you painfully hurt

but you always let me stop before it gets worse

My freedom you've never threatened to steal

you guard my rights protect me still

the pen is mightier then the sword

only man holds power with a few words

Throughout history you've painted the scene

the growth of men through power and dream

for my imagination you are the tool

but if I think I rule you then I'm the fool.

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baby..i am really sorry for everything..we've been having fight every day and night but yet here we are. i am sorry if i am being so rude and cruel to you at times. sorry if i am not being me lately. sorry that i push or shove you and make you're the one who was wrong and guilty between us. sorry for making you apologize to me over and over again. i am sorry for making you feel bad. even though we argue so much doesn't mean that we are trying to hate each other. but instead we are trying to make things more better than before. *if u know what i mean* thank you for being there for me from time to time. listening to all my crap and yet you are patient enough to handle it all. going through my ups and downs roller coaster times. wiping my tears from far and calming me down, telling me everything is going to be ok. everyday before i go to sleep, you knew i am afraid of tomorrow but u made me believe which is tomorrow is going to be just fine and there is a bright future lays ahead waiting for me. you are a great guy baby. you made me understand what is life. you change me from the good to a better person.

i hope and wish that i could make it up to you some day.

and did i tell you how much i love you ?? soon i will...

i am just not ready to let you leave.

if i were a month i would be:
June or January.

if i were a day of the week i would be:
Saturday.

if i were a time of day i would be:
5.45pm

if i were a planet i would be:
Venus.

if i were a sea animal i would be:
Dolphin.

if i were a direction i would be:
North.

if i were a piece of furniture i would be:
Rocking chair.

if i were a sin i would be:
Ehem..ehem..next question..

if i were an emotion i would be:
super duper hyper outgoing person =D

if i were a liquid i would be:
Water.

if i were a stone i would be:
Diamond ? does that count?

if i were a tree i would be:
Coniferous tree. hehe. don't ask me why.

if i were a bird i would be:
Those white nice looking bird. i don't know what it is called.

if i were a tool i would be:
yes yes hammer too !! haha we have the same taste mal.

if i were a flower/plant i would be:
same also. White rose.

if i were a kind of weather i would be:
Sunny weather please !!! =)

if i were a mythical creature i would be:
SKIP !! haaaa..no way i am answering that.

if i were a musical instrument i would be:
Drum or Piano.

if i were an animal i would be:
Dolphin.

if i were a color i would be:
white too !!

if i were an action i would be:
errrrrrrr..loving ? haha

if i were a vegetable i would be:
Long beans. yummy !!

if i were a sound i would be:
Sound of the wind or waves.

if i were an element i would be:
Oxygen.

if i were a car i would be:
Porsche too !!

if i were a song i would be:
I stay in love with you !!

if i were a movie i would be directed by:
errrr the rush hour director.

if i were a book, i would be written by:
mmmmmmm..

if i were an article of clothing i would be:
Skirt.

if i were a food i would be:
Dim Sum.

if i were a place i would be:
In his heart.

if i were a material i would be:
Handbags?

if i were a taste i would be:
Ohhh i know i am sweet..

if i were a scent i would be:
Peach..

if i were a word i would be:
Love.

if i were a body i would be:
An eye too baaa..

if i were a facial expression i would be:
=/ ( i am like this at the moment)

if i were a subject in school i would be:
Any science subject.

if i were a cartoon character i would be:
DeeDee

if i were a shape i would be:
Triangle.

if i were a number i would be:
9 or 11.

tag: dee, netty, wani, baby and zirah.

i guess this would be the shortest and simplest update you'll ever get from me. YES I AM BEING LAZY. I DON'T CARE. i am mentally exhausted today. and please don't ask me why. i need some space.

Things that i did today.

woke up. shower.
walked to college.
had my first module 9 class (human factor).
walked home.
MSN. shower.
dinner.
homework.

now, i better be off to bed. i need to keep myself fresh for tomorrow's lesson. information will be squeeze in from time to time tomorrow.

sorry for this anyway. but at least i had the courage to update this so called blog.

enough said. i know i know i love you too.

weekend ?? sure did i had a good time. On Friday wani, nins and her marvelous husband azam slept at our place. The girls were making that chocs-fall thing. addition with fruits. it was great. then later that night we watched this movie called flight of the living dead. if i am not mistaken. it was super cool. i had the chance to scream as much as i could. and it was super duper hell FUN.

Then the next day (Saturday).. i went to Dunkled. Ray and i cooked butter milk chicken and fry vege. cooking is FUN !! i just realized that actually. hehe sorry my bad. i know i know..i don't do all the cooking while i was in Brunei. so now i knew how it felt like to cook your own dishes and seeing people enjoying every moment of it. it felt great !! sooo Dunkled peeps, bila lagi ?? next weekend ?? hehe. we'll let Deekay do the cooking next time. kan kan ?? who agrees ?? haa.. that night, we watched 3 or 4 movies. HORROR movies !! Thai's movie really scare the hell out of me. like seriously. and as usual, we slept late.

lastly today, was just an easy day for me. i woke up then went home. did all the laundry, cleaning my room and there i was..off to Dunkled again. Because you know what ?? i am finally back at the park again !! watching the guys and Deekay played footie..took some snapshots using my hp..but i took loads and loads of pictures with amin's canon cam. gosh i love his canon. i wish i could own one one day. well what the heck.

here are some of the pictures taken from my hp.

i am really looking forward for next weekend. cooking, movies, laughter and more and more movie !! gosh my back hurts. i guess i am really tired today. so i think i better get myself to bed bed now. i will try to post something tomorrow IF i got something to share. i wish i do. but ain't gonna promise anything.

enough said. i love you too because i know you love me.