Happy 45th Birthday Mummy !!! again, i can't be there to celebrate your birthday with you.
i really love you so much and i miss you like hell. may God bless you mummy. :/ you are the best mummy in the world.


here is something for you.

Today is another day in another year
Muma, I want to tell you how much I love you
I love you more than ever, believe me my dear

Your image from my mind will never smear
My love for you will flourish and accrue
Today is another day in another year

How could I not be affectionate and sincere?
Your love was so unconditional and true
I love you more than ever, believe me my dear

You consoled me, wiped many a tear
Your warmth healed me when I was ill and blue
Today is another day in another year

Your words of wisdom echoing loud and clear;
They guide me through and through
I love you more than ever, believe me my dear

I’m immersed deeply in sadness that you’re not here
For your devotion, from my heart I thank you
Today is another day in another year
I love you more than ever, believe me my dear.

i love you mummy.

p/s : i hope the present reaches home safely.

what a day and what a night. Did more wire locking today, thank god we finished everything on the Gnome engine today. So by tomorrow, we will continue back with the CF6 engine where we left it. Wire locking is starting to get more fun and fun. I really had a bad cut today. deep on. i chaffed my upper finger * on the right hand to be exact * while i was trying to pull and tighten the wire in place. So not fun watching blood coming out from your body part. But it is worth to see you work done in a nice way.

and yes, i am not fasting today. Still having my PMS. I was about to fast though, guess not today. It don't feel good sometimes when i am not fasting and the others are.

* tummy ache *


ohh wait..how was the weather today ? it was CRAP !! i don't like it. baik pulang snow ni. iski pulang ku.


anyway, went home around 4 plus..then found out that the electric top-up finished. So i went out again into the rain then back home. Cooked dinner, had dinner, went for shower. Right after shower guess what ? I STUDIED !! finally !!! why ? because boyfriend was there to give me the study mood. checking me up from time to time. Actually i told him not to wait but he is kindo forcing himself to wait for me until i am done..

well i am done now with night study and i just took a peek on the webcam. my heart drops..

awwwwwwwwwwww sweet right..
love every inch about you.
30 more days.

anyhow, goodnight then. i am extremely tired.

boyfriend just called to check up on me. since i can't really sleep last night. i got that massive headache which turns me into tears. kinda sucks, i know. other than that, i smile. because ? he woke up in the middle of the night, switched on the webcam and there i was, laying down like a dead corpse. he was really trying to make me smile and not to think about the pain. i found that gun thingy funny baby. hahaha. ohhh ohhhh i talked to lil soldier on the phone too. he really talked to me. like ba ba, maaa maaa and all those baby's language. he just learned how to walk..now..he SCREAMS if he doesn't get something he wants..


anyway..morning everyone..
i dream on going home last night. funny thing. i went home with boyfriend. lol.
ohh well..maybe one day.

hows my day ? siuk berabis..feels like in heaven..nothing is bothering me..SO NOT !! ehem ehem..ohh well, not mentioning any here..what did i do the whole day? meng-ebay non stop..ohhhh ebay mood..please go away for now...you can come back when i am rich enough to buy anything i want from there..

..............................pleaaaaasssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........................................................

i found this really really nice handbag..ohh no no no..not handbag..its HANDBAGS..with 's' at the end of the word..yup...seriously here..it is like, i am dying to get it..but boyfriend is reminding me not to spent so much..because i might get broke..but not broke as in no money at all..just simply broke..

i guess the more you get older, the more expensive your toys are..* i refer things like handbags, gadget or what as my 'toys' * ohhh wait...baby, how is my toy ? uhhhhhh again..boyfriend said i am fat..he didn't actually use the word FAT. but i get what he means. i got 4 weeks left to please him before he gets his ass here..added to that..we both love the word 'ass' geeeeeeee..i know you love me..


anyhow..i wanna raise my case..i love you more than you love me..nothing can go beyond that..i mean it..nothing..nothing..nothing..

YOU


&

will never let you go..

hahahah baby said he wants to 'x-ray' his tickets again. he wants to really make it sure. wow. he is with his serious mode face again.

ok ok ok ok now i will really stop.

goodnight. miss everyone back home and in Oman.

muahhhhhhhhsssssss..

no i can't stop yet.

i just started a conversation with him.

me : have you read my blog ?

him : about bbq and all

me : the new one

him : just now? no

me : ok. finished it then.

him : i will try to be quick

me : ok

now he is crossing his fingers which i pretty don't know why.
hehehe i find it fun right now sharing what i am up to right now.

sorry baby. i know you love me.

ok i will really stop now..

i feel like blogging again today. why ? please don't ask me why. i just feel like it. currently i am listening songs from my iTunes, from one song to the other. eventhough it craps so much..i still tend to listen to it..over and over again. that pretty shows i am extremely bored..baby is on the other side of the webcam. i mean..over there..aaaaaa please just get what i mean..what i have in mind right now is 'when the heck am i going to study?' the thing is..i do wanna study..but..myself won't let me. how bullshit is that?

what takes him too long to get here :(
i need you my butterfly. *sounds gay to you?*

what makes me more upset right now, i can't stop eating. my habit is hunting me down again. muching non stop til i sleep. i am getting fat, seriously i am. my cheeks are like pig. the gravity pulls the cheeks down so much..


hmmmmmm i miss you. strangely..i miss arguing with you. because it helps me to understand you more. ohhhh baby is buying ticket right now.. jeng jeng jeng ~~~~ with his serious face..typing all the information in..going from one part to the other * he is actually doing it right now while i am typing this* now he wants to type more and more information in..wow..he can't even smile a bit by doing it..i guess he is serious..

i think i better stop.
love youhhh baby.

goodnight people.

sorry for the lack update..i know i know..feels like forever that aku inda update this so called blog of mine..ohhh well..the good thing is..i didn't left it for month(s)..ohhh i am having the mood to upload pictures from July bbq at the guys house..was super great..you know what it means by great right ?? it's bbq CHICKENS !!!! ok..that is so lame..but anyhow..these are all the pictures i got..ohhhh yeaa...our garlic bread hangus..our salary were been cut by our boss Hamzi..ohhh well..





































ok..bye bye July..

p/s : the great month of the year so far...talking about it...I LOVE MY ANNIVERSARY MOMENT WITH BOYFRIEND !! :))))



and hello August..the fasting month of course...nothing much happend tho...but all i can remember..i spent alot this month...seriously alot..from the clothes shopping at Dundee..wait..not just Dundee, Perth too. i seriously need to control it..but seems like i can't..i just can't..ohhh baby..here me out..i can't control it..and you know what i am up to next with this shopping level right? it's ONLINE shopping...ohh crap...mati ni cani ani..mati mati... !!! then the money drop to groceries shopping..most of the time too.. ( dalam hati, i need new fridge )


i can't wait for August and September to be over...so i can meet up with boyfriend in October..other than that..i will be having my exam in October too..so wish me luck !!! since Dee mentioned her wire locking has improved...nowadays..i love wire locking...i don't care if my finger got cut every where..i just love the feeling seeing my work got done pretty well..


anyhow..til here for now..hope to update it as soon as i can..IF i got something to share tho..IF...


love ya'll...


miss you boyfriend.

how is me ? don't ask. all i need it LOVE. i feel like i am just being.......ALONE AGAIN...i will never know the meaning of true happiness until i have truly loved and been loved. i will never know the meaning of pain until i have lost it..


please hear me out..

i am sorry baby. for everything.
baby, i miss everything about you.
i love you yesterday, today, tomorrow and will always be.

i wish you knew it.
i wish you see it.
i wish you felt it.
i wish you understand it.
i am tired.
i can't go no more.

hoping for a better day.

as i promised on my second last post..that i will be uploading more pictures while i was in oman..last night i dream of going there again.. sigh :/ oh well..maybe next time..not to mention..i am bored right now..but i will go out later...SHOPPING !!!!! *is it?* lol..anyhow i miss u lil one and the big baby.. hope to see you soon..really soon...REALLY REALLY SOON..*majal*

bahh i am off to shower.


love you other half..