update update update update !!! ok. let me make it simple. i ain't gonna do story telling here. but i will present you ladies and guys with pictures. yessss..my super BBQ pictures and Aces 26's 10th monthsary in Perth.

Venue: Dunkeld Road.
Time: Lunch
Theme: Formal clothes ( yeaaa rigght to some of us !! )

my sleepy head..i miss you !!

i've been doing some reading on peoples' blog * being so jobless here. what a very lazy weekend i am having this week* anyway, back to the point..most of them are trying to share something which they can't express verbaly..they wanna share what is inside the heart and the mind..different people have different personality to live their life..and every one of us should appreciate and respect each individual's life..i admit..my weakness is how to express what is inside my heart..but not whats in my head..


people tend to share their love life and how they live their life from day to day..how depress or happy they are..i guess being in your any age, you likey want to know how it feel to be in love and be love..some tend to move on after being in a relationship..some are in the middle of pain..some just started their relationship..some are confuse..some like being super duper single..some are in between of two..where as..some tend to think they don't need love..their jobs has made them happy than anything else..living the life of your own dream would be the greatest thing that would happen in your life..


but dont you ever wonder..the things that had happened in your life? have you ever come across something that you don't ever wanna lose in life..but still you are losing it even tho you had tried your best to save them??..

i guess this is life..we meant to live the life..not to make it more complicated as its already is..the world is rotating in one complete circle every 12 hours..the day begin with a sun rise and ends with a sun set..time goes by..people comes and goes..BUT life?? you are only given to live once in your life..no second nor third..what i am trying to say here is..try to make every single day of your life as memorable and quality as you could..you won't be able to know when is it going to be for you to breathe for the last time..or when you will not see that person anymore...


here is the thing ... that's what this is all is about. it is like a market. buy and sell. you give and you get something in return. don't worry if there's nobody in sight who has exactly what you pursue. don't worry if you have a lot to give, and nobody around to accept it. because at the end of the day, there will be someone who will take what you can offer..


move on with life..don't cry because it is over..smile because it happened..


i miss being around you both..Al-fatihah..

mummy in action trying to kiss me.

mummy, my eldest bro and i.

aaaaaaaaaaaa miss you all !!!! thank you for you time mummy !! and to my eldest bro..thank you to you too !!!! i love you all so so so so much !!! *hilang jua stress and rindu when i saw kamu* but still i am missing Adek Aiman so much ~~~~ you don't love kaka anymore ?? where have you been little one ?? quit with the sports and activities..your olevel exam is coming up..

mummy..eat healthy food baaaa..please....

and abg..stop being bitchy..muahaha..

and to you over there..lalalalalala *pinch ur ass and run away*

sure did it scares the hell out of me
but,
missing the Alien voice all in a sudden

how was the exam papers ?? aaaa the essay was FINE !! BUT THE MCQ IS EFFING KILLING ME LIKE HELL !!! now i am really hoping for miracle here..LIKE SERIOUSLY !!! i still need to get this MOD 10 out of my head..i need to focus on my upcoming exam this Friday. shitty shit it is playing in my mind !! aaaaaaaa i feel like jumping from a building..i felt something is squeezing inside me..the chest hurts..the head is going insane and my heart kept on telling me that i will fail my mcq ~~


` please tell me i am wrong about failing the mod 10
`i need comfort
`baby i need you

yesss this is how i look at this very moment. stress myself right?? i am at the library doing my module 10 revision which i will be sitting for it tomorrow morning !!! aaaaaaa seriously i still need time..i kept on saying ' i need time' lalalalalalala time goes so fast..i am still racing with time..i ain't not gonna give up * motivating myself here*

i am taking break in between here. so i won't go nuts on it..i am here with Ming, Amin, Shar and Karusa * i hope i spell you name correctly here* hahah sorry dude if i am wrong.. i guess i will be staying here for a very long long i repeat ..looooooonnnnggggg time...

i need miracle baby.

i miss you sleepy head.

at this very moment..i feel like i wanna scream really really damn loud !!! i am taking break in between my revision at the moment.. !!!! arrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhh so so so really hate Air legislation !!!!! i can't wait for this to be over !!! over with MOD 10 !!!!

lalalalalalalalalala i am jumping up and down on my bed just a moment ago..i feel like a dead shitty shit right now..i really cried because i am lost all in a sudden !! KENAPA ?!?! what is wrong with my head..

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ok..take a deep breath Zai..give yourself a break for few minutes..
WHAT?? few minutes ?? i don't have much time here..
aiyai aiyai..


back to digging up the notes !!!!


for the person over there, i love you baby.

The spell has been broken and now i am set free to the world of my own. So hear me loneliness..i am going to give up on you. From this time of moment, i don't need you anymore. For the emptyness..i have no room of space for you anymore too. Yes i admit..before i was lost, things were broken into pieces, mess was everywhere..i can't even make my own decision at times. Until that day, now i know what my life is all about because i've found something what i am looking for. What is it ? let is just be me who knows it. It's time for me to cherish the life i have now and wash away all those shitty thing. lets race against the time.


but i ain't saying life will be much easier this time..i wouldn't know what are lays ahead waiting for me to fetch it up..to the darkness, it is time for you to stay away..

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baby..
happy third monthsary baby !!
with load and load of love for you my only guy !!
thank you for everything..
you complete me..
what else could makes happy other than you..
you are the beat
you are the life.
love you more each day.

lalalalala i know you love your burger chubby cheeky princess too..

he left. he finally left. it was his last visit here during the weekend. the weekend had been a blast. i enjoyed ever single moment of it. from the morning til night. going from one place to the other. but sadly we didn't have the chance to watch movie, due to some circumstances but other than that he has been great, caring and lovable ! my other half is awesome !

i was crying the whole time last night. he tired my best to shut me up. haha. and yeaa it did worked. hehe. Then i promised myself not to cry today. but fugg it ! i did. i think he knew i am gonna cry. and maybe that is why he is trying to cheer me up by telling me his stories. funny tho. no doubt about that. haha but still there were tears. letting his hands go was the hardest thing for me to do. seeing him getting onto the train made the pinching feeling right on the heart. and waving him goodbye was so not the easy part. and yet he still doesn't give up to make all those funny faces from the train's window. i laughed but at the same time, tears were rolling down my burger chubby cheeks.

i walked myself home with more and more tears. once i entered my room. all i could felt was emptyness. i went out to get myself panadol since i am sick. went into the room and off i was to bed. he texted me in the middle of my sleep. i woke up and cried even more. then he told me, i can't be like this. i need to get myself back together. live the life i have now and have fun and enjoy every single moment of it like how i enjoyed myself when he was around.

i started to clean up my room, haha and yes..another tears. shoot me baby. i already miss you messing up my room with all your stuffs. and i still can imagine how crowded it was. ohh damn it, i am just not ready to let you leave yet.








for those who are wondering why i am not in college today, i am fine here. just need to built up that spirit back so that i can dig more into those notes and prepare for the exam.

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and as i promised to my best friend Amal. here are some of the pictures woman. but i did not do all the snapshot thingy on the stuff. i am still down bestfy. maybe next time.








p/s: thank you baby for everything !! i hope you like all the things i bought for you too. i love you.

sorry with the 'no update'

been busy here with this and that.

will update soon !!!!

i've been having a great weekend.

thats all i can share right now.

and and..some of my wishlist for the birthday are partly fulfill now !!!

thanx to you my baby.

you are awesome !! and i love you so !!

will post with pictures next time.

so till then. tata.

i didn't go to college today. why ?? my head hurts..berabisly !! i couldn't sleep last night..like everything was in my mind..my head was like a coal mine thingy !! urrrgghhhh..the worst part again is..right now..my eyes hurts..i hope i ain't getting any eyes infection around here..the sun is too bright...even though i wore my sunglass..still its killing the eyes !! baby, i misplace the eye-mo that u bought me last time =( ..

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even though i am feeling a little bit shitty right now with the health and all..it didn't stop me from going out and SHOOOOPPPPP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muahahaha..i went shopping around the City for about nearly 3 hours..i went from one store to the other..it's been a while i didn't go to the City..* yeahhh right zai * no no no no no wait..the reason i went out is not for shopping really..i was just walking around burning all these fats on me !! seriously !! but still i did shop !!! i know..i am a shopaholic..i just can't help it.. sorry mummy..i know you lately you were checking out my blog..with all the birthday wishlist that i want..hehe..well..you know me..and and i know you love me..hahaha..


anyway..today..i bought two new toys !! or babies i called it..i just bought it randomly..which i don't know why..so yeaaa..whatever zai..









la la la la la la la..

gosh..i am ill right now..i went to the fun fair last night..and it kinda rain heavily..i went on rides which made me feel like wanna puke..seriously until now i am still feeling that dizzy-zzz..later that night we as in me, minzay and naeym went to city buffet for the late dinner..*isi beladar masing2* ..right after dinner i went to Methven and chilled with the guys..hahah i was having that big laugh of mine all night long with the guys..once in a while..why not right..it was a de-stressing night u called it. but hey..it was fun..thanx guys !!! love you guys..

and and one more thing. i mentioned that Dee and i went crazy on those puma stuffs over the net right ?? the worst thing was..we were did just went crazy..we were like insane ? believe this or not..since we were so obsess with this puma thingy..we actually did little research who is the owner of the puma thingy..haha dee said who knows we can tackle them..hahah then she found out the owner is old..as in OLD !! no no no..yet we didn't gave up..we searched again whether he has a son or not..haha..*sanggup tani aa dee*

ohh yeaa..to those whom are wondering who the heck is dee that zai's keep on babbling about..

this is Dee.
she looks girlish or etc. but you won't know what she is capable of. like seriously !!
hehe. other than that..uhhhh sheeee isssss soooo sweeeeeeeeeettttttttt !!!!!!
sayang dee !!!

p/s: dee sorry..i took your picture from your blog without asking for permission first. harkakhah.. hope you won't mind babe. bahhhhh .. next date bila ?

how is my day so far ?? is had been great..i chatted with so many people all at once..since my other half was asleep..harharhar..so why not right ?? anyway..me and dee went crazy about stuffs today..especially stuffs which has something to do with SHOPPING !! urrrghhh seriously..i can't wait to go home and shop shop shop..with dee..we are kinda alike when it comes to shopping..and food at some point..sabar dee..nanti ada your dengan ni..soon..muahaha..so i kinda did some site browsing while i was chatting with dee, my bff amal, keedon and my baby ( whom was asleep ). and and i think i kinda did some of my birthday wishlist that i want for this year. i only did some, NOT ALL YET. if i don't get all, some would be ok..at least SOME..not ONE..keep that in mind..

so here it goes..

GADGET.

FROM THE PUMA STORE.
dee wants some of these too. with different colours of course.

FROM ACCESORIZE

FROM LV !!! IS A MUST !!

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then right after a conversation with Dee..my BFF Amal appear. hahah girl i miss you. as usual..sunday gossip and all with the stupid faces of ours..ohh yeaaa..we shareed alot today..hahaha hush hush !! gagagag we were so pacah girl..you and my friend dee took all those stress away..thank you so much..so next date ?? can't wait girl..love you my lesbo partner !! haha..

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so there, amal left because i told her i wanna do the pictures-cropping thingy..and all in a sudden..keedon texted me through msn..saying that he miss seeing me and all !! aaaa grow up man..you left me..and that was few years ago..deal with it dude..don't regret on anything that you had done. you are nice to me after we broke up..and we manage to become friends..but telling me you miss me like what you did today ??..no no no no..move on..when you left me..and i did move on..anyway you already got her..soo be happy about it. what ever she got..i am sure it is more than enough for you. goodluck.


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last but not least..my baby finally woke up !!! and here i am blogging while you are doing something else with you laptop..F1 i bet ? orrrrrrr.. mmmmm..i am not sure. miss you !! i know i can just easily tell you this right now through this video call..but no, i wanna say it here. i miss you. i really do.

xoxo love you !!

enough for today ? i guess so..